Null Paradox
Null Paradox | Despair
The song Despair is the fourth of ten levels of grief.
The series of songs is about Victoria’s loss of Seth, the love of her life. The story takes place in the Null Paradox steampunk universe as part of the music, book, and live performance series.
Null Paradox | Behind-the-Scenes Video
Our BTS video featuring Analise Rios (Victoria), Drew Morgan (Conductor) and his orchestra.
Analise was recorded by Andrew Krivonos at the Brewery Recording Studio and the orchestra was recorded by Patrick Phillips at St. George’s Hall.
Video of Analise by Wakeem Jackson and the orchestra by Simon Whitehead. Edited by Tom Libertiny.
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Vocals (Victoria)~Analise Rios
Guitars~Stuart McCallum
Keyboards, organ, synth~Dan Moore
Bass, piano, keyboards~Tom Libertiny
Drums~John “JR” Robinson
Orchestrator and conductor~Drew Morgan
Clarinet~David Pagett
Flute~Eliza Marshall
Oboe~Imogen Triner
Violin~David Grubb
Violin~Declan Daly
Violin~Hugh Blogg
Violin~Joanne Green
Violin~Marian Givens
Violin~Paul Barrett
Viola~Carl Hill
Viola~Fran Higgs
Viola~George White
‘cello~Harriet Wiltshire
‘cello~Juliet McCarthy
‘cello~Miriam Wakeling
Music by Tom Libertiny.
Lyrics by Tom Libertiny and Wilted August
Produced by Tom Libertiny
Mixed by Patrick Phillips, Space in Time Studio A
Mastered by Sangwook “Sunny” Nam, Jacob’s Well Mastering
Vocals recorded by Andrew Krivonos, Brewery Recording Studio
Orchestra recorded by Patrick Phillips, St. George’s Hall
Cover models~Analise Rios and Darius M. Thompson
Photography~Tom Libertiny
Illustration~Ana Cruz
Lyrics
Why’d you claim
My happiness
Take down
Down to the ground
Only was
The two of us, around
Sharing our sound
Watching you
It’s crystal clear
You sound so profound
Need you most
One last time
Take down
Down to the ground
You always made me feel like you knew
Always made me feel deja vu
Goodbye
Goodbye
And I always loved you
It’s not fair
It all comes down to despair
One last glance and this I swear
It all comes down to despair
Annabelle plays both sides
Shadowing Seth in plain sight
Waitin for the right time
Waitin for the right time
Gonna reveal his crime
Gonna reveal his crime
I always loved you
It’s not fair
It all comes down to despair
Tell me today
If you care
It all comes down to despair
Do ya think it’s over?
For our affair?
It all comes down to despair
Once a little girl
Wanted the world
Once a little girl
Wanted the world
Once a little girl
Wanted the world
Once a little girl
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Null Paradox~Despair
Cover models~Analise Rios (Victoria), Darius M. Thompson (Seth)
Illustration~Ana Cruz
Photography~Tom Libertiny
Costume~AJ Martina
Key HMUA~Charlee HM
Assistant hair and makeup~Tracy Noe, Adam Hynes, Ashley Roos
Null Paradox | Physics
The nonlinearity of Victoria’s grief brings me to the multiverse concept. It’s the basis of worldbuilding within Null Paradox.
Physicists describe the multiverse as an object that contains all possible universes. At its core, the Null Paradox multiverse is the same, but how we navigate the infinite permutations of each universe within the multiverse is different.
Victoria | Zero
To keep things understandable, the primary Victoria is Victoria Zero.
In Null Paradox, Victoria’s life is actually a series of tiny hops from one universe to another stitched together to create the life she experiences. This is facilitated by a machine briefly described in the first book, which plays a more significant role in the second book.
But what do all the other Victorias do in the multiverse? Do they wait around until it’s their turn to play a fleeting part in Victoria Zero’s life? Or do they have a life of their own that is briefly absconded by Victoria Zero?
And how far do they, as people, stray from Victoria Zero?
The answer to the last question: the essence of Victoria remains the same through all the possible permutations. But there are significant variabilities in their relationships and actions.
Unsurprisingly, what Victoria looks like changes too.
Victoria | One
Make no mistake, Victoria Zero is feisty, loving, and a warrior.
But Victoria One is darker. In her universe, she wasn’t as accommodating to Seth during their relationship. The repercussions of Victoria One’s actions aren’t as different as you’d imagine from those experienced by Victoria Zero. But the acceleration of the repercussions is significantly faster in Victoria One’s universe.
If you linearly aligned their timelines, Victoria One experienced things before Victoria Zero. If only there was a way for them to communicate… Which brings us to a future story about The Bully.
Here’s the tricky part | Zero, One, and Two
The Gertrude, Grace, Victoria, and Seth that you read about are technically the primary ones. “Zero” is appended to their names to reduce confusion, as in Victoria Zero. The adjacent universe has a Victoria One. And so on, for all of them.